Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Driving myself crazy...

Why do women, and myself in particular, do this each month?  Why do we nitpick every single tiny thing that could possibly be construed as a "too early to tell but I'm still having it anyway so it must be true" pregnancy symptom?  I do this and I know lots and lots of other women who do this as well.

Here are my (only) 3dpo "symptoms":

Many of these are TMI - but for anyone out there actively ttc, well you've seen/read/had them all before!

  • I'm so tired I can hardly keep my eyes open.  Whatever you do, please don't make me move!
  • I just feel "ugh".  General feeling of just "not feeling well"
  • Dull cramping right in the middle of my abdomen
  • Dull lower back pain which is constant - it never stops hurting, or if it does stop, it's only for a few minutes to an hour at a time.
  • Everything tastes funny.  Not metallic, but just really funny and off.
  • I feel like I want to puke all the time.  And if I would just go ahead and get it over with I'd feel so much better.
  • I feel shaky.  Like my body is doing things and running off of reserves of something that I didn't know I had.  I feel like I drank 6 pots of coffee and are going into hyper drive!  (and I haven't had the first cup!)
  • I'm so dizzy.  I can sit perfectly still with my eyes closed and as soon as I open them I'm dizzy.  Moving is like trying to walk across one of those bridges on playgrounds - the metal/wood ones that are just planks tied together.  You know, the ones when you were a kid, you'd make your buddy stand on the other side and y'all would take turns jumping just to throw the other off balance.
  • My balance is off.  Largely due in part to the dizziness.
  • I feel limp.  If I just hold my hands down by my sides while sitting, I feel like I could just sink right through the floor.
  • Occasional sharp twinges in my left and right sides.  These twinges are painful.  Like someone's in there sticking their finger into my ovaries
  • My CM the day before yesterday was very very sticky with white globs in it.  Yesterday it was more slippery but still had globs in it.  Both days, it was definitely increased - I could feel it dripping (yuck!).  Today it is clear, very wet, not sticky, and no globs.  But still increased.  I get lots more on my fingers, but don't really feel it dripping.
  • I'm running a low grade temp - 99.0.  I never run a fever unless I'm actually sick with the flu/bronchitis or something like that.
  • I'm so gassy and bloated.  I feel like if someone poked me in the belly I'd just explode!
  • My nipples are slightly sensitive.  They don't hurt or anything, and they're not nearly as sensitive as they usually are right before AF.  But just noticeably sensitive during play.
  • Yesterday and the day before it was uncomfy to lay on my stomach.  Today, I really haven't had that much of a problem.
  • I'm starving!!!  Of course, this could be attributed to the diet I started 2 weeks ago.  But I JUST ate a huge supper which was very filling, but an hour later I'm ravenous.
  • The thought of food, or at least some foods really make me want to puke.  My cereal this morning - after 2 bites, I couldn't eat anymore.  It was horrible.  The blueberry muffins I tried to eat instead - the smell alone made me want to light them on fire with a blow torch just to get them away from me!
  • I'm so tired, yet am having trouble falling asleep.  This is actually normal for me, but not so normal here lately (the past couple of months I've had no trouble falling asleep).
  • I feel unfocused.  Like I could stare off into nothingness and be entertained for hours.  Just lose myself in space.

Ok, so I know I'm crazy.  All of these symptoms point to:  Post-Ovulation/ Coming down with an illness/ pregnancy/ insanity/ a "make-believe" pregnancy/ insanity.

Only 3 dpo and I've got all kinds of mysterious "symptoms".  It just really isn't supposed to happen like that.  I'm not supposed to get ANY symptoms until after implantation (still 3 to 6 days away).  But still.  I don't know.  I'm all confuzzled!  LOL

I've heard/read that if carrying twins, symptoms can be exaggerated and show up earlier than they would with a single.  Twins would be awesome!

But who knows.  We'll just have to wait and see.  I hate waiting.  Waiting sucks!

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