Just had an awesome talk with DH!

Ok, so I just had an awesome talk with my dear hubby tonight!


While at work today, I did some research on trying to conceive tips and tricks.  And one of those tips is to use egg whites to make a better environment for his swimmers while they're trying to find my egg.  Another one is a particular kind of lubricant that won't kill his sperm.  And so forth and so on.

So I'm telling hubby about it and he stops me.

"See this is what I'm talking about.  I don't want to do all this stuff."

"Fine!  I knew you were a lier.  You don't want a baby and I'll just drop it!"

"No I'm not.  No, let's talk about it.  I don't want you getting all stressed out about doing research and baby stuff and then it not happening every month."

"Oh."

Well, it turns out that we've been having a miscommunication error.  His actual sincere concern is me getting super excited during my tww (two week wait [between ovulation and waiting for the dreaded AF - aunt flow]) and then getting depressed when AF rears her ugly head.

He also doesn't want to be told, "we have to have sex right now."

BUT!!!!!!!!

He is willing to dtd every day (or every other day or whatever) during my fertile window so that we make sure there are some baby swimmers waiting on my egg every month.

He says he doesn't care if I chart, or check CM or CP or any of that stuff.  Just so long as I say, ok from this day to this we have to dtd every day then we get to take a break!

I also explained to him that I have been going through 9 months of AF hell all by myself.  That I feel like I have to hide things - like my time on the baby center forums and any hpts I take and my feelings when its a BFN (big fat negative).

He's known about the hpts.  And he told me that he hates that I hide them from him.  That he'd rather know about it.  He'd like to be a part of it.

And he also told me that when he said "I'm more open to that thing [which is how we refer to ttc without actually saying it]", he was actually saying.  Yes, let's have a baby.

Well.  I'm so very glad he and I had this little chat.  It clears up a lot more things for me and makes me a much happier person.

I doubt it'll keep my stress over my tww and af and all that totally down.  But it will help.  Because finally I can share it with DH.  And he'll be just as anxious, excited, disappointed, etc. as I will.

So.  I'm CD3 and have a few more days to go before my fertile window comes along.  So I'm going to sit back and relax before the sexfest begins.  Because by this time, week after next, I plan on being a very very exhausted but hopefully well on my way to pregnant woman!