A killer

Anxiety is a killer!

Sitting here just waiting on af to show. 

I have had some strange symptoms the past few days and lots of symptoms have just gone away. 

Today it's mostly been cramps and back ache and burping a lot.  Also a much more intense need to pee!  It feels like af is about to visit but the cramps are a little different.

But then again I have had cramps every single day since cd 9 so even though I'm cramping today doesn't necessarily mean crap.

I'm not going to call it a missed period until after June 27th.  Just in case I did o late.

Even though I'm certain I o'd the 9th or 10th, butt no later.

All tests have been negative so far.  Last night late I took one just because I couldn't resist.  If I held it just right (right light right angle) I swear I saw the faintest of pink lines but if I moved it a fraction of an inch the line disappeared.  In my mind, head, brain, the rational and logical part of myself I think that I was just imagining things and there want really a line.  But in my heart I truly believe there was.

I'm thinking of taking a digital test in the morning because a lot of people on the forums are getting negatives with the frers and positives with the digitals.

I desperately hope it's positive.  I am beyond ready to get my bfp!