Well all of the pains and "ugh" feelings over the past several days have subsided. But now I just feel so exhausted!!! I feel limp. If I put my arms down by my side I feel my whole body just dragging toward the earth. It is a major effort just to hold my head up!
It hurts to lie on my stomach (and I'm a stomach sleeper, so this is NOT a good thing!). It feels like I'm lying on a bunched up blanket! And I get that same sinking feeling.
I feel pukey. I'm gassy. I'm tired. I'm sleepy. My back hurts. And I'm still having these blasted achy cramps all over my abdomen. I'm producing much more saliva than I normally do - because it's collecting in my mouth and I have to swallow it all back down. My CM today is definitely increased in quantity. And it's sticky. And has whitish globs. Sorry, that last bit was probably TMI!!!!
I feel so spacy and just out of it. I can stare off into nothingville and completely loose myself in nothingness. No thoughts, no focus.
My heart is beating so hard that it actually shakes my breasts and belly with each beat. I can watch it and feel it and hear it drumming.
My pulse rate is very elevated. Yesterday it was over 100 bpm and today it is slower but still elevated: 83 bpm. My normal resting pulse rate is around the low 70s.
My head spins and pounds every single time I stand up, no matter how slowly I stand. If I change positions (moving from left to right side while lying down or from front to back), my head absolutely throbs with each heart beat. I can sit perfectly still and my head will spin.
Nausea comes and goes.
I am craving both salty and sweet. And they come right on the heels of each other. For lunch I ate 2 pieces of sliced swiss cheese (which I normally ONLY like on sandwiches & hamburgers, but never ever by itself), a big bunch of grapes (yum!), and several spoonfuls of chocolate icing. WTH? I'm craving fruit. I hate melons of all types, but I have the smell of a honey dew melon in my nose right now (only a memory as I'm not actually at the store) and I LOVE the smell. It makes me want one so badly. (And I hate them!)
I think I'm crazy. Absolutely insane.
Two days past ovulation and I am experiencing very very strong symptoms. Of what? I'm not sure yet. I want to hold off my testing until the 24th which is the day I'm supposed to receive a visit from my despised AF! I doubt I can wait that long! The desire to pee on that stupid stick is ridiculously strong and I have NO NO NO reason to pee on it yet! LOL If pregnant, I certainly haven't even implanted yet!
I keep talking to my belly though. (Told you I was crazy!) I keep talking to that egg telling her that she better be fertilized and to make her way carefully to my uterus. There to implant and bury in deep enough to make a good, healthy, sticky home for the baby that is dividing its little cells like crazy!!!!
And what makes me craziest of all? I truly in my heart of hearts hope that I'll find out in 6-8 weeks (or so) that it's twins.
DH is very good about having prophetic dreams. He truly is. But he hasn't had any dreams about me being pregnant or babies yet. I don't know if I should take it as a bad sign that he hasn't, or just that it's too early for him to be dreaming!
You know, as women we spend an awful lot of our time waiting. Waiting in line at the grocery store, waiting on our man to do something, waiting for our bodies to bleed or breed every month, waiting for our babies to be born, waiting for our children to grow up, waiting for our children to call, waiting for dinner to get ready, waiting for two weeks until we can find out if we're pregnant or not, waiting for AF to go away so we can try again, waiting to hear back from a doctor, waiting, waiting, waiting! We do a LOT of waiting!
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